Friday, April 1, 2016

So I've been truly struggling with an overall essay topic for Wuthering Heights. It seems like nothing I could think about would seem "smart" enough to explain my thoughts on this novel. That plus lack of motivation caused this to become even harder. I became frustrated and didn't even want to hear about Emily Brontë's Wuthering Heights. However, currently going through some life learning experiences has made this novel the most impacting in my life. It is so difficult for me to dive into a novel and understand the message behind it. I have now realized it is because I try my hardest to avoid relating to them. Why? Because being vulnerable is a scary thing. However, this novel has taught me more about love than anything else. So as I'm trying to explain to someone why I care about them and where things went wrong I think back to this novel and say, "We shouldn't live for one another, instead we should live in each other's lives." At that point I realized that I not only figured out my own problem but had came up with what my essay should be about. While Heathcliff and Catherine's love seemed eternal, was it really? Heathcliff has lived for Catherine. He dedicated his life for her and their love. He became vengeful because what he was living for was not his. He lost sight of himself and became angry because what he thought he deserved he did not contain. On the other hand Catherine fell in love and continued her life. She did not live for Heathcliff like he lived for her instead, he was just another individual living in her life. With that being said, this novel goes deep into love and how people believe it should be expressed. Some are so deeply in love that they lose sigh of who they truly are and in the end become miserable. Heathcliff lived a sad life and once he died it remained that way. While Catherine was married a happier than Heathcliff was. When Heathcliff died he had nothing he cared about left. When Catherine died, she gave birth. This reflects the lives they both had lived. I think the message behind this novel is that one should not live for a person instead, be a person living in their life. Because once you lose yourself entirely the ending result will be disappointment vs. if you don't which will lead up to something beautiful.